Post by Kata6 on Mar 30, 2006 20:51:09 GMT -5
Ok, this isn't really THAT serious, but here goes anyway...just a little reflecting on my part.
MySpace is a trip...you put in what highschool you graduated from and then other people from your highshool look up the year they graduated and they can find all the others that graduated at the same time. I joined the cult when I was a freshman...I dropped out for a semester, went to outpatient, then went back, then dropped out again to go to the "sober" school and then went back to graduate from my regular school. Needless to say, I was pretty much in the cult my whole school career..including a time when there was about 10 of us from the group going to my highschool hanging out in our little cliques.
So there were all these people at my school that I have known most my life, from the time I was in 2nd grade and I joined brownies/girl scouts and hung out with all the kids in the neighborhood. We went to grade school, jr high and highschool together. Somewhere around 6th or 7th grade, I stopped hanging out with all these kids and started hanging around with the "bad kids". All of my gradeschool playmates went about their business getting involved in school and such, while I did a lot of other non-desirable stuff. We all lost touch, but we still saw each other around school from time to time.
Fast forward to now, and I'm starting to get emails and friend requests on myspace from some of these friends I had in gradeschool. I actually thought for some reason that they all moved away sometime after I stopped hanging out with them. So all this stuff gets me to thinking and I pull out my yearbook from my senior year....and there they all are...every single one of my gradeshool friends is in the book, they all graduated with me....and I had no fucking idea...they were cheerleaders and student council members and such. I REALLY had no idea....and then it hits me....I was the one that moved away.....mentally. That's what the cult did to me. Now who knows if I'd have been friends with these people in highschool if I hadn't been in the cult, I can't see myself on student council or as a cheerleader, but it just struck me as so bizarre that I thought they all moved out of state, and there they all were.
I really missed out on a lot. I told myself in the cult that I was better off, happier to not be going to highschool proms and keggers and football games. Right, I was happier sitting in 12 step meetings smoking an assload of cigarettes, having one on ones about my feelings and living with 14 people in a 1 bedroom trashed out apartment. Right, I was much better off.
Just some thoughts.
Thats it.
MySpace is a trip...you put in what highschool you graduated from and then other people from your highshool look up the year they graduated and they can find all the others that graduated at the same time. I joined the cult when I was a freshman...I dropped out for a semester, went to outpatient, then went back, then dropped out again to go to the "sober" school and then went back to graduate from my regular school. Needless to say, I was pretty much in the cult my whole school career..including a time when there was about 10 of us from the group going to my highschool hanging out in our little cliques.
So there were all these people at my school that I have known most my life, from the time I was in 2nd grade and I joined brownies/girl scouts and hung out with all the kids in the neighborhood. We went to grade school, jr high and highschool together. Somewhere around 6th or 7th grade, I stopped hanging out with all these kids and started hanging around with the "bad kids". All of my gradeschool playmates went about their business getting involved in school and such, while I did a lot of other non-desirable stuff. We all lost touch, but we still saw each other around school from time to time.
Fast forward to now, and I'm starting to get emails and friend requests on myspace from some of these friends I had in gradeschool. I actually thought for some reason that they all moved away sometime after I stopped hanging out with them. So all this stuff gets me to thinking and I pull out my yearbook from my senior year....and there they all are...every single one of my gradeshool friends is in the book, they all graduated with me....and I had no fucking idea...they were cheerleaders and student council members and such. I REALLY had no idea....and then it hits me....I was the one that moved away.....mentally. That's what the cult did to me. Now who knows if I'd have been friends with these people in highschool if I hadn't been in the cult, I can't see myself on student council or as a cheerleader, but it just struck me as so bizarre that I thought they all moved out of state, and there they all were.
I really missed out on a lot. I told myself in the cult that I was better off, happier to not be going to highschool proms and keggers and football games. Right, I was happier sitting in 12 step meetings smoking an assload of cigarettes, having one on ones about my feelings and living with 14 people in a 1 bedroom trashed out apartment. Right, I was much better off.
Just some thoughts.
Thats it.
