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Post by WhiteRabbit96 on May 12, 2005 23:37:05 GMT -5
Ok...so I've been staying away for a while. I haven't been too comfortable with hanging here. Well...not so much here, as there. Catch me?
I have a lot of insecurities. I always have, and I remember very vividly how when I was in the group I felt like there was a magnifying glass on me at all times. Letting ppl know exactly what to say to really get to me. And definitly brush it off like, "what can't take a joke?" And for some reason it has carried over. Call me silly or whatever...but I just wanted to metion it. I really like everyone here...maybe it's just my insecurities flaring. I mean I can definitly post more freely here, and all....but that feeling does still linger.
ok...I'm done now.
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Post by Kata6 on May 13, 2005 0:45:15 GMT -5
I can relate. I have found myself with a whole heck of a lot of drudged up crap when visiting "there". Sometimes I think it's just my insecurities and other times I'm pretty sure theres actually some validity to it. I really do think that there are definately some old cult games still being played "there" and sometimes I get caught up in it. I'm insecure, too. But I try to remember that really we're talking about a message board and if people want to judge me for shit I post then fuck them they don't know me.
Ok, that is all I have to say right now.
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Post by - on May 13, 2005 9:04:07 GMT -5
I say what I mean
And I mean what I say
But I never meant to hurt anyone
In any way.
The content of this post has been deleted by the author. To my knowledge it has not be archived in any other forum.
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Post by webdominatrix on May 13, 2005 10:43:20 GMT -5
I don't want you to think I don't think your post is valid or needs to be addressed. I'm still formulating a response and will get back to this later today. -WD  |
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Post by webmistress on May 13, 2005 11:11:18 GMT -5
I too have my own issues with on. I feel as though my opinion does not matter there. Be it my own insecurities or WTF ever. I feel because my “experience” was different then the majority of the people there, my points and questions, and feelings are not as valid. I say this not because I want reassurance they are but because I can.
I have fun over there (within the realms of the rules) and when things get serious I usually step the fuck back, not because my opinion isn’t as valid but because “opinions are like assholes” and that board has enough of both. That being said, I also feel like I am the square peg trying to squeeze through the round hole. Gosh I am full of these today…<br>Rabbit you are welcome here, and I hope you will find peace with the other site too.
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Post by justsomeguy on May 13, 2005 13:13:41 GMT -5
I just don't even post there. Most of the the threads seem unbearable to read.
although, finding out Levi Morris is a fucking college graduate was neato.
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Post by casper on May 15, 2005 0:48:19 GMT -5
I can relate. I have found myself with a whole heck of a lot of drudged up crap when visiting "there". Sometimes I think it's just my insecurities and other times I'm pretty sure theres actually some validity to it. I really do think that there are definately some old cult games still being played "there" and sometimes I get caught up in it. I'm insecure, too. But I try to remember that really we're talking about a message board and if people want to judge me for shit I post then fuck them they don't know me. Ok, that is all I have to say right now. Agreed. For me it's impossible to have memories etc. dredged up when I see names of people I used to know etc. Sometimes I'll see people or read things I don't like and that especially dredges things up. While I don't want to steamroll anyone or hurt anyone's feelings, I usually will write whatever comes to mind on that site while of course folowing the rules. I use the site to write things that come to mind and to reconnect with some people. That's it. I already have friends (one's who don't give a shit if a drink. In fact it's encouraged!  ) |
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Post by mzdiagnosed on May 15, 2005 12:23:12 GMT -5
I get what you're saying WR. It is weird over there. I don't feel all that comfortable either. I know it was never intended to be this way but there is a "group" element to it. It seems like there are topics with specific agendas and it is hard to disagree with the opposing opinion. It seems like some people are concerned with having the final word or a snappy comeback rather than really considering what people are saying and letting it be what it is. I'm afraid I'm far too unimaginative to start posts that will eventually have a little fire by them and just don't have the energy to do come up with one liners all night and day. Hmm I wonder why. I think people are generally a little more aggresive in ANY online environment given that you don't have to look straight into someone's face when you say what you say. This has benefits and drawbacks. Besides offering anonymity, it does occasion people to be brutally open. I HAVE been helped by it though. Once in a while someone posts something that hits me and I laugh or cry or change my mind about the fact that I am the only person who ever thought THAT before. I have reconnected with some people who were and are dear to me and I think the expose stuff was good. I too hope you find peace.
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